Thursday, March 12, 2015
Day 2 - Turning Right
And then it wasn't. By 5pm that day I no longer had a job. Didn't see it coming. Completely blind sided. Completely.
Into the later hours that night I was in full panic mode. Seemed unreal. Frantic phone calls to family and close friends, and like me, everyone found it unbelievable. Sleep became literally impossible. In spite of a double dose of Unisom and a melatonin tab for good measure, sleep evaded me all night. and all day the next day as well.
As the initial panic faded, I started taking defensive measures. Cancelling services, cutting every expense I could think of. That kept me busy. Made some calls, set some appointments. And finally, last night, I collapsed in exhaustion. And slept all night.
But what happened all through the day yesterday, and again today.................were texts, emails, and phone calls from the people around me that care about me. I only let a few people know, and yet that blossomed, and I've been contacted by at least a dozen different people. Prayers, scriptures, lyrics from songs, tonight, a box full of "goodies" from a neighbor. I'm frankly overwhelmed by it. Humbled by it. After 17 years of working somewhere, and giving everything I had to make that place work...........and so very very seldom feeling supported.............well, to feel this love and concern has brought me so much hope.
So I jumped in the car this morning to head out of my neighborhood, heading to see my parents, then to an appointment.
And as I left the neighborhood...........I turned right.
I always turn left to head to the office, but today I turned right. The minute I did it, it felt so different, and I chuckled to myself. It seemed symbolic that I was heading a different direction.
I will probably never head to that building again. And sit in my grey box, and endure the day. Some days better than others, but almost always coming home full of stress, turning around and heading there again the next day.
Today I turned right. I went a different direction.
at 9:36 PM